Understanding my life and who I’ve become is connected to understanding the evolution of my art. I use art as a means for communicating and expressing ideas, after examining the questions I have about life and the situations I have been through. Through my classical studies and the influence of graffiti art and hip hop culture, I developed a symbol and concept that often reoccurs in some of my work. I call this idea Concrete Scholar. It is a simple symbol of a man wearing a hood with a shadow over his face sitting in a meditative position and praying with both hands.
Concrete Scholar was born while I was attending art school at the Academy of Art College in San Francisco. There I received classical training – studying anatomy, illustration, oil painting, still life, design, figure studies, and digital media as I worked to find a balance between renaissance style and graffiti. By graffiti I mean abstract lettering designs. The meaning of the art goes beyond the word that is intricately written. I draw influence from the beauty of other written languages such as Arabic, Sanskrit, and other forms of hieroglyphics. Today my work can be found on canvas. My pieces are often painted with a combination of spray paint and oil paint.
While attending the Academy I was a student in need of affordable housing. I lived in San Francisco’s Tenderloin District, a neighborhood full of drug dealers, prostitutes, and drug addicts. Here I witnessed violence, emotional anguish, and the constant struggle and hell of American poverty. The experience of living there changed my perspective on the world and made me view life in a different light. I became less interested in fantasy art creating creatures from my early years and became more captivated by things that are real. I was fascinated by the urban landscape and the people who dwell in it. During this time I learned a lot from the school and the street. This is how Concrete Scholar got developed. The concept of Concrete Scholar is about praying and meditation in the street and transcendent hip hop. It is about reaching a higher consciousness in a material world. The main concept of my work is to portray the street as a school.
I moved away from California back to Evanston because I was diagnosed with schizophrenia. The disease still bothers me to this very day. I have gone through so much from being suicidal to being placed in restraints in the hospital and not being allowed to see my family. Today the illness isn’t as bad as it was before, yet it still troubles me. I find refuge in my art work because it is one of the only escapes from the symptoms.